What It Feels Like to Come Off Antidepressants After 20 Years

What happens when a woman decides to feel again after 20 years of numbing her emotions with antidepressants? In this raw and honest blog, I share my journey from rage and apathy to self-awareness and healing. I talk about what led me to medication in the first place, the shame so many women carry for feeling “too much,” and how coming off antidepressants forced me to confront the emotions I had buried for decades. Along the way, I discovered the power of cannabis as a healing ally, the wisdom of mindfulness, and the truth of my neurodivergent mind. I learned to embrace my natural rhythms, forgive my past self, and honor the messy, sacred process of becoming whole. This is a story for any woman who feels lost, muted, or disconnected—and is ready to remember who she really is.